Thursday, December 6

Well...how cum so much happens on 
the days that I don't have time to write anything? 
This is a sample list: trouble for helping Jan by 
O'Reilly, talk with Stock, possibility of going to 
Europe this summer, babysat for Cooks, took History 
test, stayed up till 2:30 A.M. last night & now it's 
20 to 12. (midnight.) I still haven't picked up 
my room. (Have you noticed how many different handwritings 
are in this book? That's how many personalities I have. 
I'm probly a schizo phsycopath kleptomaniac sexmaniac moron.  
I'm for sure a klepto, I stole 4 ice cube chocolates from 
the Cooks & I don't even think twice about stealing from 
PLACES: (not stores, I'm scared shitless after being 
caught with Kate in 6th grade,  even though I have taken 
pretty much stuff since then. Mr. S____ told me about this 
lady who steals to order!...) but what was I gonna say? 
Oh yeah me & Jan had to stay in that claustrophobia math room 
with F.U.C.K.I.N.G. O'Reilly WITH THE DOOR SHUT, all alone, 
cuz the rest of the class went to a transcendentalist lecture 
by Anderson and, did we get in trouble.  We lied at 1st, but 
the 2 tests Jan took didn't go together and she admitted that 
I helped her. Now I have to take a retest! Why?...
"I just wanna see if you can get a 99 again!" sneers 
O'Reilly when we got to N.C.S. We (Jan, me) talked to Stock 
so we wouldn't have to talk to Snottie alone. Stock said 
to take whatever I got since I did a damn fool thing. 
At first Jan said she wanted to drop Geometry (to O'R.) but 
Stock persuaded her to stay right away. (O'R. didn't even try-- 
he would've gone along with the Puritans & Alexander Hamilton 
that man is essentially bad & he doesn't trust us. Stock does, 
& that's why we cooperate with her. Respect has to be a mutual 
thing.) How's Jan gonna face O'R.? She practically cried at our 
"confrontation." O'R. said he thought it was planned 
that I missed the bus! 

Well...I started reading The Bell Jar at the Cooks & brought 
it home without asking them, & I want to read even though it's 
12:00 midnight cuz it's so good (just the kind of stuff I like) so...