I'm getting really depressed about everything at once. I don't like any of the people I call my friends, I don't like myself & I can tell no one else does either. I wish I didn't have to live with Dad & L. because, although they don't come out & say it, it bugs them to have me around, & it restricts their freedom. I'm not the type of person they like, either. I can't think of anything I like to do besides sleep. I've even noticed myself slipping into my old 8th-grade habit of making constant negative comments about everything & everyone, never seeing the positive side in anything, cutting people down & making them uncomfortable.
I don't know what I'm asking for or what I want, but I'm sure not getting it.
