Sunday, August 4, '74


 

I keep on writing this notebook as if someone else will read it--why? From
now on I'll try to admit everything.

Starting now:

1.  I admit I have a sexual attraction to Nick N., and with all the
electricity, I don't see how he couldn't know. But after thinking about it,
I don't know if I really like Nick or if I just need love & sex. I think
it's a little of both. Nick tells my type of jokes, & he's cute and small,
just the way I like boys (for some reason I can't figure out). But he's too
much of a druggie. I'd like just an occasional toker like me. Besides,
Franny has had him so hooked for so long he couldn't get off even if he
wanted to. And after having a girlfriend who will let you screw her, what
fun is a girl who won't?

I wish I had boobs the size of Tracy K. I think that would be the perfect
size--not too big or too small. Boob talk again! I hope no one reads this
it's absolutely & totally embarrassing to me.