July 29 - Monday


 

Yuck--I've been smoking handmade cigs from this tobacco that John bought,
and it's horrible.

I had a nice long talk with Sarah today and told her about her foxiness.
She knew about it, too. She told me that Franny was mad at me because she
was jealous that I was sitting next to Nick at the horseshow. My god,
Franny jealous of me? What have I got to be jealous of?
Franny has everything--looks, body, personality, riding ability, pot, star
quality (leadership) & I've got nothing that any boy could possibly want.
Besides, Nick so obviously likes Franny. I mean, he was only making out
etc. with her the whole night before. We were only sitting there so we
could see, since Sarah & Franny always hogged the front row. Even when I
once had the front row next to Franny, she asked me to move so she
could "tell Sarah something." Ho ho. Aren't I entitled to anything, just
because I'm not Miss Cute Popularity? I do like Nick but I barely know him
at all and he doesn't even remember my name. Besides, I kind of like Mike
C, who I could never get, either. I could never go out with anybody who was
really into drugs, because I'm not.